Distance

Distance

Such a funny thing

It has its own way

            Its own process

Tears

What a way to learn

It always took me a time

Separate

Moments pass

Versions emerge

Time ticks away

More distance

No more familiar

No more steady shoulder

Everyone moves on

Forward

Backward

Change has no preference

            Only obligation

It can be hard to accept

Old sayings come to mind

Friendly advice from another you

            So easy to forget

            So easy to get lost

Distance makes you think

Makes you crazy

Makes you forget

So desperately I won't to leave that part of me behind

But, and always subtlety, it appears

            Behind some dark alley

            Or an old song

                        It has a large arsenal

Occasionally I escape the heavy artillery with a flank to the vice

Only holding steady for a moment

            But keeps the retreat at bay

A distant enemy has a way of sneaking from behind

I'm tired of battle

Why can't distance bring peace?

Three thousand miles and I'm still looking over my shoulder

Shadows appear in you image

            Coming to threaten all I've gained

I suppose, well it can feel like, your dropping bombs from the base of your heart.

Stop the contact

No more what could have been

My future cannot depend on the unknown

            But wait, the unknown excites me

You know that

You're using my weaknesses against me

I must say one hell of a strategy

I'll be honest, I admire the play

            But not with me

I'm no hero

No superman

I hurt and wonder

            Weakness takes me and I offer my surrender

            I give up

            My white flag is raised

But then I'm reminded that this is not the outcome you want

You like the misfortune

Dictator of heats

Ruler of my misfortune

I wish what I needed and what I wanted was the same

How often it isn't

The distance makes you think

It can drive you mad

            Or to the place you want to be

I'm trying

I'm losing, but I'm trying

Give me distance

Give me distraction

Time will embrace me

            And show me that it was all just some distant memory one day

So tomorrow, and the next day

I will open myself to change

Let it take me

Consume me into forgetfulness

Then maybe, just maybe

            I'll let someone in again with the same risks

            And just enjoy the ride front row

Should this happen and I see you again

I'll simply say this:

            "Thank you for the spectrum that led me to my present state.

            By the way you look great. No, I'm busy. Sorry. But maybe some other time

            Oh yeah, just so you know, you changed my life…my everything. We may never meet again outside my martini memories, but you will be here with me…always. You know, on that note I should go. Good to see you and the entire marvel you are, but the longer I stay, the more sanity I lose. I tell you what. Look me up in 5 years and we'll weigh out the benefits of communication and all the predicted flashbacks of pain I'm sure will follow. But you know that I know it wouldn't stop me from from…

Repeat

Brief wonder

Moments of what if

Pain

Lost

Distance

            Keep it as long as you can

The heart has a way of crusading through all logic

Remember

Learn

None of this works

Distance

            Too many what ifs

It's what you need and what you don't

Could it please, just make sense?

No

Along with the heart and the pain, the logic can keep its distance as well

Dizzy circles

Different planets

It's just distance